carnival of rust

Nice to see
Sad to feel
Difficult to accept
Selfish me…

Seeing it wane
For its own good
From behind the pane
I catch glimpses,
Can't reveal this face…

I shut myself up
For my own good
Try to distract myself
Avoiding to brood

I am happy to see
it bloom in my neighbour’s garden
I am happy to find
it meeting happiness
I am sad to see
The specks of green
I am sad to find
it in me…

my first poem in my mother tongue :-)

Jokhn trishna r ghade jal diye
ami udi aakash e
chaand er tala e bishti pode
boshe podi chhaya te...



jokhn amar daak pode
ami naabi niche
thakur ghare..pa dhue
shonde jele, takiye dekhi piche
dadiye ache amar samne
ek bondhu dur er..
kichu bole na she
shudu takaye, nirav e



ebar dadiye ami jigesh kori
kintu bujhte pari na kichu i,
jigasha kori ebar nije ke,
dekhi neer jhore choker paata theke...



ude jaayi pherot nijer disha e
lukiye jai nijer gacher talaye
aar chaand er dike takiye
kaandi praan bhore...
nijer gacher talaye...